2 days back, I was in full energy. And in those 2 days, I always asked God to give me more strength in everything that I am doing. 2 days of late night sleeps (o baka nga early morning sleeps na eh) and then, have to wake up as well as early as I could para naman pumasok sa work. But still I'm in my full energy and kicking! Sabi ko nga kay Nanay Lei, "Ok lang na magpuyat at mapagod! I am just giving HIM back all the blessing that HE gave me these past few days and months.. kaya no problem! Serve kung serve!".

But today morning, I feel so tired and sad.. para bang naramdaman ko ang pagod na dapat na naramdaman ko noong past 2 days. I suddenly feel exhausted for some reasons.

Nakakahinayang lang kasi na after all the things that you're doing, for all the efforts that you have done eh you will see your anakis na walang gana. Feel dull or having lots of reasons just to refrain from the activities, which are totally opposite of what I expected. I can't even see my "anakis" the way I am. Even the bonding that I and my middle household had.

Natatandaan ko pa, with my middle household, wala kaming pinalagpas na activities ng Singles For Christ during our Batch. Kahit walang pera, GO SAGO kaming lahat! Kinareer namin talaga ang pagiging SFC and kahit anong activities na dumating wala kaming inatrasan. Sama sama kami san man mapadpad.

Hay... you really can't please everyone to be exactly as what you are or how you want them to be.

I don't want to meddle things naman with my anakis' private life. Kasi, even I got a private life and I don't want anybody to go and intrude with it. Lalo na on the times that I wanted to get alone or to be with my God's Greatest Gift. Kaya lang, ang kinalulungkot ko lang is why they can't be more active in SFC?  

Is God trying to challenge my faithfulness to him? He knows that these children are one of my weaknesses. Hay.. God has its own reasons why these things are happening..